Hi!

Allow me to reintroduce myself. It’s been 2 weeks since I have been on here and so much has been going on.

Let’s start off by saying I see a lot of new faces on here and thanks for stopping by!

If you haven’t caught up yet, long story short, I was given a 9% chance to live and I DID.

For those of you who have been here and continue to come here, THANK YOU!

Now let’s talk real life. A few weeks ago I had a major panic attack during my spin class and I haven’t been back since.

These classes give me a sense of belonging, a sense of purpose, a reason to get out of the house in the morning.

I could barely walk or move and I can get my ass up off that bike and just ride. It really amazes me.

Well, I made it back this week. It’s loud, it’s sweaty, it’s amazing.

MIND OVER MATTER.

I have to keep reminding myself that the things in my head that once hurt me, can’t hurt me anymore.

PTSD is so real. Anxiety is real. Stress making it worse is real.

Well I got back so spin because I told myself that just because I had a moment in class where it reminded me of the hospital doesn’t mean I should give up something I like.

I am going to keep having those moments from the hospital and those moments from recovery, hell I’m still recovering, but I just need to keep a positive attitude as much as I can!

I’m sorry it’s been so long, but this is all I have. I hope everyone reading this has a fabulous day.

xo