Meghan Markle

Meghan Markle, you are a goddamn cheetah!

I am finally getting around to watch this interview. And of course, like most of the US we idolize her. She was American and was going to marry a Prince and marry into the royal family..

Well, clearly it wasn’t all it’s cracked up to be. I can’t believe the type of “mental” torture this woman has gone through. To think about this and my own “mental” torture, some of it seems oddly similar.

Trying to put on a brave face.

Smiling to hide the tears.

Telling everyone you are ok.

Being strong because that is your only option.

Admitting out loud that you NEED help, is brave. It is one of the bravest things you can do. Meghan said, “it takes so much courage to admit that you need help, it takes so much courage to voice that, and as I said I was ashamed.”

Shame on them. No one should have to feel ashamed of what they are feeling. It took a lot for me personally, to say I need to talk to someone. That this year has been hard, emotional, and that yes I am suffering.

After my first conversation with a psychiatrist, she diagnosed me with PTSD. Now we think ptsd and think about soldiers coming back from war... well she told me that I fought a war. It was my own kind of war, it was mental, it was physical, it was hard and I shouldn’t try to diminish those feelings.

I try to be as positive as I can but some days I’m just not, as I’ve already made very clear. I call it Fakebook for a reason. Those pictures that I post, they lie. I post my happy moments on there or when I’m faking a smile to get through the day. Why? Why is that all that I want to show the world?

Ya know what, I stopped doing that recently. I posted the damn picture in my mesh underwear because that is what HEALING looked like that day. I shouldn’t be ashamed of it. Just like I shouldn’t be ashamed of laughing, or crying, or just flat out showing emotion and neither should you.

xo