My old life

It’s creeping back in little by little.

I got to see my nanny kids yesterday. Let me tell you the pure joy I felt in my heart; it was like I was punched in the chest, it hit me so hard. Kids have such a way of making you see life so differently.

It makes you think about where would you be if you could start back from that age again.

Say you chose 7 years old, 18 years old, 21 years old... whatever number.

Where would you be now if you could do it again? Would you change things? Is everything exactly how you want it to be?

There are very obvious things I would change about the last 10 years if I could, but they also brought me to where I am and to the person I am today.

I wouldn’t be the same person I was today if I didn’t go through heartache, happiness, failure, success, trauma, and so much more.

5 years ago, I lost my cousin, my best friend. That’s part of the trauma that has made me so strong.

1 year ago I was transferred to Tufts via Med Flight ground...

This is me. I’m meshing my new life with my old life and becoming a whole new person. Who will she be? What will she do?

I have no idea; but I’m ready for it.

xo