We’re just going day to day here

At the end of the day how do you decide you want to keep fighting?

Whether it’s for your life,

whether it’s for your family,

whether it’s for your relationship,

whether it’s just for you.

How do you decide to get up and fight for what you want?

I know that I have fought EXTREMELY hard to be here. I value my life and I’m happy to have it. But what’s my next step?

I’m getting married, I’m writing a book, I’m trying to spend time with those that still reach out to me even after the crisis has ended; where do I go from here?

I’m really not sure. And I’m not sure that anyone in my position would know what to do next. But I always feel like I’m on edge. Like I have to be the best person I can be at all times. Like I have to become someone great in exchange for getting to keep my life.

It‘s a lot to put on a 28 year olds shoulders. And sometimes it’s really heavy.

I will never give up fighting for my life or fighting for what I feel I need to make me happy.

It’s become hard for me to compromise anymore. I refuse to do things that make me miserable or don’t bring me joy.

So for now, I have to take it one day at a time, keep moving forward and being the best person I can be.

xo